the.thrill.
Don’t you just miss the things you use to do sometimes? Here, i list the things that i miss doing. I played football for the first time on Saturday in over a year. I actually do miss the hitting, running, getting hit, catching, and the injuries. Yes, the injuries, i have two full legs of injuries from football haha. I miss playing basketball with my homies for endless hours getting a tan making shots and talking trash. I miss playing soccer on the street where goalies get a scar for every save that they make. I miss gambling with my friends and family all at the same time. I miss my bestfriends from 9th grade. I miss not having to ever work. I miss playing baseball with a wooden bat and a dodgeball. I miss highschool. I miss not having a care in the world. I miss my father. I miss the way you made me feel. I miss the urge to succeed. I miss the feeling of love. I miss killing everyone in bowling too.
sigh….i do miss a lot of things
smileee for me :)
I haven’t used this thing since i made it because it was so confusing before right jane? well since i normally like to blog and this is a blogging website ill share something.
I’m Happy(never thought i’d say those words). I am very that things have turned out the way they have. Going through all the troubles before make everything so worthwhile now.
For the past three years i have put myself through so much pain and agony with the one category in life that i could never understand. Relationships, whats there too say i have no luck haha. I have changed myself too many times to try to get to know another person. I surrounded myself with friends thinking that if i had friends i wouldn’t need a girl to make me happy, but having friends also surrounded me with their relationships. Its never ok to be the third wheel but it was easy being around the friends who never made you feel uncomfortable to be around them and their significant other. I appreciate my friends for what respect they show me.
A friend once told me, “Don’t go looking for love, let it find you.” and oh man i listened to that one for awhile. Still she was right, i went looking only to come back with nothing but false hope and broken promises. In the rear view mirror was the one. The one girl who understood who i was before i ever had to make any changes to blend in. I put her aside because we were great friends and i did not want anything to ruin it. At first, i liked her but then i became a person she could talk to so putting the “like” aside we were only friends. It was some what difficult because i really cared about her. We drifted apart as i changed, but it was best for the both of us. I thought she wouldn’t like the person i was becoming so i shut her out of my life for the past two years. She still tried to talk to me, but i avoided her by any mean possible. One day she just stopped and we were some what strangers.
After 2 years, we started chatting again and she always knew how to make me smile. i wondered why i stopped talking to her and it was the stupidest reason. She made me happy, and i put her behind. Man was i stupid or what haha. After a little while of talking she is finally with me. she is my girlfriend. Knowing that i have her makes me happy and i can put down the front i have when im with my friends. Yes, my friends they want to meet her, but what am i supposed to do, were different and i don’t want them to scare her away LOL. It might take some time for the adjustment, but i think it will all be worth it in the end.
yea yea, kinda cheesy but what ever im tumbling haha
